your reply is in a mess at this moment in time,  i thought of the pigeon beside the fountain, the sweetness is scattered. a mysterious tugging of my emotions  i'm still loving you. but you continued singing pretending that nothing has happened. time has passed and left,  love is faced with a choice.  you've become cold and i've cried the unhappiness you felt...

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People have been telling me and saying the same things. Why do you want to be with someone that constantly make you cry and isolated? He is not your husband, certainly not someone who feeds you or that you depend on to live. So why?  Why, you people ask me? I have no idea. Maybe love is still blind for me after 2 years. I can't deny my feelings. But I agree, I've suffered. I'm in pain. I'm deeply...

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What? "Ok lo"? You know what? Fine. Nevermind. I don't need your "sigh-need-to-accomodate-to-your-needs" kind of attitude concerns. I don't need your help. As if fetching me out for dinner is something painful to your ass. I'll just eat apples instead for few days and get in shape. Then go look for other good guys. Nice? I don't remember expressing my "mm songness" to you whenever you asked me for...

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For days I've been having suicidal attempts at home. For hours I've been coped up in my room. Why do I still o the things for them when it's not being appreciated? I still get scoldings, I still get humiliated, I'm still not respected. So why is it that I'm still doing everything for them? All the while they were being so calculative towards me. This feeling of being uncared for is stripping my...

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I don't understand. I don't know why. Why? Is it who? Why? Why? How? I don't want I don't want.Why? What? W...

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I'll shut my mouth. I'll keep everything to myse...

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I find myself looking for someone for solace. I feel like laying on my bed for long hours dismissing all the things and decisions I have yet to make. I'm scared. I'm worried. I'm terrified. I'm so much more. I don't want to think about it. But I have to do something. I don't know what are the consequences to the choices that I will need to make. I wish I could just laugh things off and be free with...

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I knew it was all a big prank joke when my friend told us she is in a relationship. I could smell something fishy going on, and the smell grew stronger this morning when my sixth sense told me to be prepared for the big prank. And I was correct. It IS a big prank. No relationship, no boyfriend, no proposing, no holding hands, no nothing. Just a big fat prank. Congrats Crystal. My condolences Denise....

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I don't know what to write. But I know I have to change the way I write things. I'm not going to edit that post. Let it be there, it's the only way I can put it. I went to Ice Room today after finding out I have to go to Yulek to get my parcel. I thought that since me and my friend is already here, we might as well as try the food at this cute cafe. Turns out to be quite a nice place to dine. My...

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I never thought that everything would happen so quickly in just a few days. I thought of giving it a week or so before really jumping in. But fact is, I was already falling on my knees. I couldn't deny my feelings. I couldn't bear watching another in his arms. And Alice was a good bait. Too bad the...

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This is a nice song I stumbled upon in Youtube while listening to Beyonce's Sweet Dreams. Enjoy... Beyonce - Broken Hearted Girl You're everything I thought you never were And nothing like I thought you could've been But still you live inside of me So tell me how is that? You're the only one I wish I could forget The only one I'd love to not forgive And though you break my heart, you're ...

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It's 1.30am already and my mom and sister is not home yet! What is taking them so long? I heard they were still at Changi Airport 4 hours ago. Couldn't have taken them this long to reach home could they? And where is my package of clothes?? I wonder if the postman have troubles delivering the package to my unnumbered house. But one wouldn't be so stupid as to not know which house is 27!! Oh my goodness....

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I've lost my appetite for who knows how long. I've lost sense of time and date. I could feel the bones on my shoulder everytime I take my shower. Just like I would say in all theother times, I'll take this like a diet. At least I'm losing some fats. A friend of mine once told me : Even if you put...

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Today my day begins quite well, although tiring. I had to wake up at 6 plus in the morning to fetch my brother to school, only to return home cleaning up my puppy's mess. Then I went back to bed for another hour or so before waking up at 10am. Wished I could sleep longer. My mind is totally blank...

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Today was really a surprising day. So many things happen within such short hours. I hope everyday is like this! This is really making life so much fun and exciting! Apart from the fun, my thumb and index finger got burned by the hot pan when I was cooking some dish for dinner. Now it felt medium raw....

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Now I know I'm not alone. Just had a long chat with a long lost friend and apprently he had quite the similar problems that I have, just that his was much more severe. So I'm not alone. So I have someone to talk to now that understands my feelings. Thankful to have this chat. Feel so relieved.Thanks....

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Now it's just like "everyone have their own problems, and they're just minding their problems". That's how I feel towards my uni mate. It's kind of like I'm the one watching my story in other people's place. And I figured, well maybe that's why it didn't happen. I'm sorry, you don't understand? Too confusing? Yeah. That's my objective. For sure that I need time to "Alt+F4" my feelings that I harboured...

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*Yawns* I'm tired and bored. Things have been quite hectic for me. And I know my baby blog have been crying from neglect. My new house still have not install internet yet, let alone telephone line.Last week was not fun. Had to rush my (two) assignments on the due date itself and go to Jalan Raja Laut to see the Skin Specialist doctor. Cost me another (RM260) BOMB! Well actually my mom but... my heart...

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